Everybody is searching for their purpose in life, I for one did. In my teenage years and even up to adulthood I still wonder what that purpose would be for me. I know that I was created to do something great, to do something admirable and to accomplish great things-I just feel it in my bones. I thought of something big, something grand and noble. It was not up to a week ago that I finally realize what God has sent me out to do.
Starting a family, I had my very own vision of what and how I want things to be. I already planned out how life will be for me, my husband and my kids. It was ideal and it was perfect! On top of it all, I would be having a great career, something that would change the world or something that would impact many lives. That was me. That was my vision. Then along came the Autism.
Dreams were abandoned, goals and visions were changed and life shifted to something that I wasn't prepared for. For almost 3 years since my daughter's diagnosis, we have been to therapies, school, and swimming and exposing her to almost anything that we can think of to be able to help her. This became my life. My world revolved around my daughter and her needs and to think of better ways on how I could better help her. Then one day I thought about my dreams and thought about all the what-ifs and asking myself if there will ever be a chance to reach those dreams. God has planted a very strong dream in my heart and I know it- the dream to do something great!
As I was looking for spiritual enrichment, I came across Youtube videos of Ravi Zacharias (upon the recommendation of my younger brother). Ravi is a christian apologist, best selling author, and a preacher. From one of his sermons I began to finally understand and internalize the phrase "a child is a gift from God". A child is not given to you by accident but with a purpose. The life of a child is not only a life of a single person but it could mean the future of a generation and the future of the whole nation. Right now I do not know what lies ahead for my daughter and myself but I know that every person-adult or child are meant and created to do great things. Everything that we do in this life could impact the lives of others, whether we like it or not. The littlest things that we do could contribute to a great change in the life of another. Our child may he or she be verbal or non verbal is in this world for a reason, just like we are. They are not here for a lesser purpose but for the same reason just as you and I.
After a long time of searching, I finally know what my life's purpose is. When I look at my child, I finally know what God has sent me to do. God has sent me to do great things for a life not less than that of others, but for someone who was created for a purpose just like any other person in this world. I may never know why she is created differently but all that I need to know is that she was created fearfully and wonderfully by my God, my savior.
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